Being so far,far away..

here i am,at kemaman..what should i say about being here other than nearer to my beloved husband,my MIL,pokcik and mokcik..hehehe..
at first i thought i will not miss my hometown as kuala pilah and kemaman is rather the same but i am totally wrong because the similarity makes me feel like going back..my mom and dad came to visit us and the moment they walk away i cried inside.owh,it is like being left at boarding school when i am only 13..
yup,people might sat that i have my husband to heal the pain..not to deny,he helps a lot but missing my parents is so unbeareable..sometimes,i just have this thought-"betul ke aku dah kawen.."
i never imagine that i am going to be this far,never..but this is life i choose to life with..we do not get what we want each and every time..so,keep on and get going..

***leaving here...***

i am leaving,off to Kemaman this coming April..i requested for Kuantan but no vacancy AT ALL..branch je banyak,tp penuh..nyampes..
i feel sad,so sad..leaving Kak Faridah (she is my assistant manager..)..she always there for me when i need a listener,when i need to get angry to somebody,when i can't stop my tears from falling down and when i need to laugh hysterically...owh,no offence my dearest husband..
i tried to identify my feelings right now..happy?sad?i don't know..i am afraid,i guess..
i really,really,really need guidence..Ya Allah,please help me..
the only thing i know,i am going to be thousand miles away from my mom and my dad..i used to be that "anak manja",and now daddy's little girl is no longer manja..i am going to build my very own life..that is very demanding task..
the best part is,i love the smell of the sea and because of that i have no regret to leave Genting Highlands and going to breathe Kemaman air is such a blessing for me..it is just i am afraid to face my new life,new work,new everything..!!!
i hope everything is going to be fine..and as my MIL is there,i can learn to cook my husband favourite dishes..but my MIL mmg kena byk bersabar,i am very slow learner..
owh,i am going to miss my room,my bed..and i need to pack things now..

***tell me..***

aku mengharapkan kejujuran dalam byk perkara..kenapa?sebab aku benar-benar jujur menyuarakan suara hati aku.aku x berpura-pura untuk membuat org lain tertawa..that is not me..but,i have to admit that we are all actor in this world..namun,seorang pelakon juga harus menjadi jujur pada dirinya..kerana jika lakonan itu tidak dijiwai,dilakukan dgn pura-pura,it will appears..
tell me something that i don't know..kenapa ada manusia yang berpura-pura hanya untuk perkara yang akhirnya akan membuatkan org lain derita..kenapa ada manusia yang sekadar mendengar,pura-pura memahami..?jika aku tanyakan tentang kenapa,i bet it will never reach the end..never..

all the way..

i always wonder,am i a good friend..?did i do the best for them and always be by their side when the lightning strike..?urm..i juz don't know..or should i say i never be a good friend at all..
i do believe in karma..what u give,u will get back..
for my dearest friends,if u ever come across this blog,i want u to know that i really love our friendship,our moment..and if i never be that good friend,please forgive me..
well,to become someone better,it is not an easy path..
thank u,for being with me all the way,my friends..

hidup berkasih sayang

aku akhirnya mengerti betapa indah hidup berkasih sayang dengan menjadi seorang isteri..dlm erti kata lain, i am so happy being a wife..sebuah kehidupan yg sempurna..sungguh..
actually,i am not feeling well lately..maybe because of work load yg banyak and i stressed out.but,semua perasaan tu hilang bila my husband came back from off-shore for me.he worried too much..he always like that..
dan malam tadi,saat dia terlena aku pandang wajahnya yg keletihan itu..
ya Allah,Kau rahmatilah suamiku ini..
redhailah dan permudahkanlah urusannya..
aku terlalu mencintainya..

**malam yang panjang**

now is already 3.15 am..juz don't know why i can't sleep..mmg letih sgt2 tp mmg x dpt nak melelapkan mata ini..owh mata,tolonglah..
so for this reason,i choose to create a blog..i don't know what else to do..=D
well,i guess i am going to wake up very late tomorrow..ikut hati nak cuti,tp sayang cuti la pulak..
next month going to Langkawi then in May to Krabi..and have to spare leave for coming Aidilfitri..
owh,puasa pun belum kan..=D
not yet bgtau my dearest husband that I am writing a blog,wonder how is his reaction..